Echoed Laughter

Feb 23, 2008

Procrastination stinks.

Before everything I just wanna say..

I AM ABSOLUTELY HAPPY! Even without you, JERK!XP

Mwahahahahahahahahahahah! >=)~

ANYWAAAAAY. SO MUCH FOR THAT. XD

Today was a bad day! X3 Reeaaally.

Yesterday, camille went to our house. We were asigned to do the presentation for our AR report. It's about fashion (woops) Hahahaha. :P I'm not really into that kind of thing, but oh well.

I dunno what's wrong with today. May something! Hahaha!

I finished the presentation last night at about 11:45 PM, then I studied for our math test. Then after a while, I just remembered that we have assignments due tomorrow! Weekly Journal and Weekly Article for AR, and 10 items geometry exercises! I knew it. I should've done those already T.T Aaaah procrastination. I swear! After this blog post, I'm going to do my other pending plates. Oh!! ^^ I'll post them soon on deviant :D Please visit me. [christineberces.deviantart.com]

Anyway, so everything was piled up and it was already midnight, what am I supposed to do?! I thought, "Okay lang yan bukas ko gagawin gigising nalang ako ng madaling araw." So I set my phone to alarm at 4:30 AM and contined studying. I was lying down because my back was already hurting. Next thing I knew, I was already asleep. Waaaaaaaa. :P

My phone alarmed at 4:30.. Half-awake, I looked at it.. but instead of waking up, I turned the alarm off and I went back to sleep! Stupid hahaha. So I woke up at 6 AM, really freaked out. "NO! Di pako nagaaral sa math! Yung presentation di ko pa nabuburn! Yung assignment sa AR!!" Wahahaha. I even ate breakfast as I walked around fixing my things.

I was able to finish everything at about 8:20 AM. Take note, my class starts at 9! Hahahaha. From my house to there, it would take me an hour if I take the LRT.

Thankfully, I got to school safe. :)

I ran from City Hall down to the underpass and rode the pedicab. P10 lang, mabilis na, mahangin pa! San ka pa! X) Hahahaha advertising ni Krista. Anyway, right after I payed, I rushed through the hallway carrying my bag on my side, and my filecase with on my arms. I looked like an idiot.XD

I got to class at about 9:45 AM.

Aiko: Christine sabi ni sir kung drop ka na ba daw.

Me: AKO!? DROP!? BAKIT?!

Aiko: Tanong mo pa si Kamole.

Camille: Oo, 5 absents ka na daw.

Me: AKO!?!??!?!

Freak out freak out. Hahahaha it's funny when people freak out.

I was able to bring the CD of our presentation, but unfortunately, we didn't have time to present it. I was all, *kruk kruk crickets* "Sana nag-aral nalang ako sa math...." *kruk kruk crickets* Hahaha it was really annoying! But it's okay, wala ako magagawa, ganun talaga eh :)

Eto na. Janan~ Math test. I did a quick review on everything, rushing and scanning through every page, hoping I could absorb any of those.

THANKFULLY, I did! I did okay on our test. I have 2 sure wrong answers because I didn't know what to go. I hope I did well.

Hahaha. That ends my very annoying day.XD

Okay lang. I'm happy. XD I'm happy I can laugh now. I'm happy I can smile now. :)

~~~

Current Mood: Tired but happy :P
Listening to: the sound of my Lolo's TV. o.o;
Eating: Ube Macapuno Cake <3
Watching: nothing?
Drinking: C2 stawberry :D

~~~

"It's alright without you."
<3

Posted at 05:52 pm by covered_truths
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Feb 20, 2008

Why 'blessed beyond the curse'?

"You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot."
--Matthew 5:13

My relationship with my ex-boyfriend was such a waste of time. I got hurt, I was abused, harrassed(unconciously), and even betrayed. I felt like the biggest loser ever, and I hated him a lot. I wanted to get even. I wanted to make him miserable.

Because of this painful experience, of course, I became depressed and bitter. I went on carrying my depression and bitterness wherever I went. I looked sad and hopeless. Sadly, friends that I hang out with are non-Christians. What they saw in me was not hope.. I don't think they even saw Jesus' reflection in me.

Here I am, declaring that I am a Christian, but during this time of hardship, they are more hopeful than I am.

"You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house."
--Matthew 5:14-15

Instead of me being a light to them and giving them hope, they turned out to be giving me hope and became a light to my depressed soul.

A friend just made me realize how wrong I've been acting all this time.

Felix ...: wow...

Christine :D asdfasdf: bakit? =p

Felix ...: blog.. sau un?..

Christine :D asdfasdf: ahh

Christine :D asdfasdf: oo..

Christine :D asdfasdf: hahaha..

Felix ...: awwww..

Christine :D asdfasdf: wlang kwenta kaya

Christine :D asdfasdf: haha

Christine :D asdfasdf: okay lng.

Felix ...: okay lng..

Felix ...: ndi wlang kwenta..

Christine :D asdfasdf: hahaha

Christine :D asdfasdf: nabasa mo?

Felix ...: yeah..

Christine :D asdfasdf: comment ka!!

Christine :D asdfasdf: yeheeey

Felix ...: cool kc kala ko blessed be the curse..

Christine :D asdfasdf: ahhh!

He may be trying to say that he thought that the title of my blog was 'blessed be the curse', but to me, what he said was kind of like a wake up call.

My blog address kept ringing inside my head. Blessed beyond the curse. Blessed beyond the curse. BLESSED BEYOND THE CURSE.

It hit me. I really AM blessed beyond this curse!

I can give you a lot of reasons. :) but all of those are nonsense really. Hahaha.

The best reason why I am blessed beyond every curse I may encounter, is because whatever God has started in my life, he will finish. So, I really don't have to worry. In fact, whatever He does with my life is 100% best for me. How great is that? :)

In fact, why was I even depressed this past week? Haha that was pointless. I just wasted 1 week of my life. :) Carlo and I broke up, so what? It just means that he was not the right one for me. God saved me from messing up His plan for my life.

As of now, I've decided to stop messing with His plans already. I may have my own way of dealing with my life, but it may not be according to His will, so why even bother. Hahahaha, this 'life' is not mine as well. It's His. He should be the one controling it, not me. :) The more I keep on doing things my way, the more I'll get disapointed and get hurt.

God's ways are WAAAAAY better than ours anyway. :)

Posted at 04:13 am by covered_truths
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Feb 17, 2008

Forgiveness?

I know people might actually think that I need to just get over it. I know I should.. It'll just take time. But let me just say.. I HATE YOU, and it'll probably take years and years for me to forgive you. But even if I write you a thousand hate letters, it wouldn't make any difference at all. I could just go on with my life forgetting everything we had, even forgeting I ever met you, but I think it will only make me miserable. I'm not going to allow that.

I ran into this passage, Matthew 18:23-35. It's the story of the unforgiving servant. I realized I'm wrong to be hating you. I refuse to forgive you and that's wrong.. But how can I forgive someone who isn't even asking for forgiveness. Argh, it makes me hate you even more!

But..

I know it's wrong. No matter how I look at it, I'm wrong. You may have hurt me so badly, that I'm having a hard time forgiving you or even say that I still love you.. (BECAUSE I DON'T ANYMORE.), but I know that I have to. Because God said so.

Whenever I did something wrong like calling your house even if you never allowed me to, I felt like the servant beging for mercy. (I really did..) And whenever you'll say that I'm forgiven, I always felt relieved.. Because I didn't want to lose you. Anyway, that doesn't have anything to do with this haha.

My point is, I AM NOT LIKE YOU. Not like you at all. I am not the type of person who will be furious just because my boyfriend called my house. (What kind of relationship is that anyway? A girlfriend is not even allowed to call her boyfriend's house or even his cellphone?) Ts, doesn't matter anyway. It's all over now.

I'm not like you. I never will be.

I will forgive you. No matter how hard it will be, I will.

..but don't get me wrong. I still don't want to see you, talk to you, or have anything to do with you or your friends, especially your family. Whatever happened between us, just forget all about it. I never want to see you again.

Posted at 07:37 pm by covered_truths
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