I think this post will be a long one. XD Haha. I have a lot of things to tell :D Lots of things on my mind. Basta everyday talaga, God never fails to humble me down with everything He's revealing. :)

HEALING PROCESS
So far, I'm doing really well on moving on. Those days when I would miss him continues to lessen. There will be days that I won't even think of him anymore. :D By God's grace, I'm finally moving on. My heart is finally healing. :) Minsan, I would still remember him. Whenever I would pass by a spot where we often meet, eat, or hang out, or when I hear a song that makes me remember him. But really, I am making BIG progress, thank God. :) Before, I thought that every 'break up' song was meant for me. Haha, baliw. But yeah, I was that depressed. But now, I can listen to some songs without thinking about him na. :D God is really great. He continues to heal me. :D :D The process is not yet complete. I can't stand listening to 'emo' songs parin because they will definitely make me sad and emotional. I know that's why they're called 'emo' songs, but I hate that feeling kasi. Ahahaha. I hate being emotional and sad. It's just not me. :3

CHRISTIANS DO NOT FLIRT
I was waiting for the soundcheck for the Youth Praise and Worship to start (this happened last week), and I ran into the blog bulletin board near the pantry. There was something posted there which was entitled "Christian men do not flirt". I read some of it, and I was able to get something. The writer said that Christian men do not flirt because it would be a way of 'testing the waters', and it absolutely doesn't make God happy. It doesn't give God glory. If Christian men do not flirt because God doesn't want them to, Christian women shouldn't as well right? Haha.

I have a confession.. I KNOW I MAY SOUND SUPER KAPAL, OR ASA, BUT HEY, I'M NOT PERFECT. Haha. :P So anyway, I have this habit of 'testing the waters'. It's like this. Whenever I go to a place or an activity, I would always look for the good looking guys there and I would always try to do something to 'impress' them in the best way I can. I KNOW, I KNOW, ANG STUPID. I mean, who am I to do that, kapal ko naman, di naman maganda pero paganun ganun pa. But I just didn't know. I wasn't aware of it. I would always think that maybe, that guy would actually like me. By taking that chance, it kind of gives me hope and inspiration to look my best.. To exert an effort in making myself look beautiful. A question like 'Wow ang gwapo nya, could it be him? Could he be the one?'' will be in my mind.

But then, I realized, that doing this kind of thing doesn't only make me 'test the waters' which do not bring God glory, but it also display an act of irresponsibility. Sige, let's say you were testing the water and you found it nice. It suites you well. What now? You'll jump in? You'll pursue the relationship? Okay. Let's say you two end up being together. What if you find out that he/she is not the one for you? You break up, leaving each other with broken hearts. Trust me, I know what I'm talking about ._. And why do we even have to test the waters? God has someone in store for us. We will meet him/her at the right place, at the right time. We just have to be patient. :)

From now on, I'll look at everyone I meet as a brother in Christ. I'll stop testing the waters. Someone is out there somewhere :) God is holding him by His other hand and is holding my hand on the other. Someday, He will make our paths cross. I shall wait for you my love. <3 :)

THEATER
I volunteered for the theater team again. :)  I can't make it to the DVBS, so volunteered here. We are almost done shooting the skits and I hope it'll be a success :D Tomorrow is the last shooting. I don't know if I'll be going. Probably not, but I'm praying that they'll be able to shoot well. :D

YOUTH WORSHIP TEAM
Graaaaaabe. :) I can really see God working in the youth worship team. I can see that everyone's changing. I can't explain how, but I can see so much spiritual maturity in all of them, and because of that, I learn constantly. I learn from their stories, their insights, and how they respond to everything. People there are such a blessing :) I want to get close to them, but I don't know how. I don't want them to think that I'm 'feeling close' or something like that. And isa pa, I used to like someone from there, and I think he knew about it. Because of that, and because I was so young, and I wasn't aware of my actions, I ended up doing LOTS of things that might have irritated him or made him feel negativity towards me.. or maybe I'm just being paranoid. Baka nga he didn't even notice eh.XD Hahahaha. Basta. I don't like him anymore as much as I did before, but I'm afraid that if I try to get close to all of them, they might think that I only became part of the ministry because I want to get close to that someone. :( Or they might think that the only reason why I'm active in the ministry is because he is there. Nooo. That is so wrong. :( I hope they're not thinking that way.. and I hope he doesn't find out that I still like him.. My intentions and my motives are clear. I'm in the ministry for God.. It just happened that he is part of the ministry. x.x Please don't judge me..

FAMILY
I love what's happening to my family now. Everybody's talks about God now. We even take time to pray for everything. I've been praying for this and now that it's finally happening, I'm just soooo amazed at how God makes everything happen on His own timing. :)

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This past week, God has been blessing me so much. He has showed me a lot of things that I didn't see before and I'm sooooo blessed lang tlga. :) I'm currently really happy. No, not happy, OVERWHELMED. :) Grabe. :) Oh! I've started this 'routine' of whenever I'm left alone in the house, I would take time to pray for 10 things(or more) I can list down. :D So please, please pray for me. :D